Nothing’s worse than men obsessed with power,
There’s something about performing that makes it unlike anything else on this planet. The energy you get from the audience is intoxicating. Performing gives you a natural high that can take hours, even days, to come down from. I’ve said it before but performing takes me to a higher, deeper, spiritual place.
It’s been a few months but I’m happy to share excerpts of my poetry reading from the head / heart / soul event as part of OutWrite 2012. This fabulous event took place at the The DC Center on August 4, 2012. I will always look back on the event with much joy, as it was an honor to read alongside talented poets/writers such as Rashid Darden, Monica A. Hand, and Red Summer.
Video of my entire reading will be forthcoming. Prevail: Poems on Life, Love, and Politics is available at iUniverse, Amazon, Barnes & Noble, Books-A-Million, and other retailers. If you like it/love it, please spread the word.
BuddahDesmond will be doing a book signing for Prevail: Poems on Life, Love, and Politics at Another Level Hair Studio & Barbershop in Alexandria, VA this Friday, 10/05/12 from 5pm-7pm. Light refreshments will be served. Books will be available for purchase at the event. $10 for paperbacks and $20 for hardcovers. If you’re in the area, stop on by!
One of my biggest accomplishments this year has been the release of my first book Prevail: Poems on Life, Love, and Politics. Prevail was self-published through iUniverse and released the summer of 2012. Prevail is an eye-opening collection of poetry inspired by personal experiences, history, culture, and social issues of the last 10 or 12 years. Varying in subject matter, voice, and tone, this work touches on the ups and downs, highs and lows, trials and tribulations, and the many facets of life, love, and politics during this time period. With a style that is, at times, proselike, unconventional, raw, and in-your-face, Prevail seeks to offer an underlying message of strength, persistence, and triumph.
The feedback on Prevail has been quite positive, thus far. There’s nothing like sharing your work and seeing it have an impact and connect with others. Nothing can describe the feeling.
I’ve shared a number of poems from Prevail on my blog and some other posts related to promotional opportunities for the book. If you haven’t had the chance to check them out, please do.
Remember, no matter happens in this life–we must PREVAIL!
- Announcing the Release of My First Book – Prevail
- Day 86: Gone Too Soon (from Prevail)
- Day 75: Flash In The Pan
- Day 72: Prevail (Title Poem)
- I’ll Be Appearing at OutWrite 2012 in DC
- Day 79: OutWrite 2012 Was a Success
- 5 Minutes, 5 Questions With… BuddahDesmond on JoeyPinkney.com
Other Prevail Poems:
- I’ll Never Understand
- Past, Present, and Future
- When Hate Kills
- Luther Is Love (A Tribute to Luther Vandross)
- The P/H Factor – Phyllis Hyman: Tribute to a Sophisticated Lady
When everything else falls short, our dreams are sometimes the only things that can pull us through. When you wake up each morning and go to bed every night yearning to break out and bring your passions to life, you’re eventually going to have to make a decision. Either you’re going to continue living a life unfulfilled or you’re going to commit yourself to working towards a fulfilled life where you achieve your dreams. I’m glad that I finally made the decision on November 27, 2011 to make a serious push towards achieving one of my lifelong dreams.
On November 27, 2011 I submitted the initial draft of my manuscript to be self-published through iUniverse. For at least three years, I’d been toying with the idea of publishing my first volume of poetry. For whatever reason, I was conflicted. I take that back. For several reasons, I was conflicted. I’d given so much of myself away to my job and school and other entities outside of myself, that there didn’t seem to be much time or energy left to focus on what truly mattered to me. I doubted my talent and wondered if I really had what takes to make it. And I got caught up in others’ and society’s expectations of what I should be doing with my life. I found myself trying to adhere to standards and live a life that I didn’t want and that didn’t fit me personally. I suffered because of it and had to work to rebuild and get myself back on track.
So in the months leading up to submitting my manuscript, I eventually said, “Fuck it!” I was tired of being depressed. I was tired of doing things I wasn’t passionate about and could really give two shits and a side of fuck about. I realized that there was no better time than right now to go after what I wanted. I couldn’t blame anyone else but myself if I got to a point in my life where I was completely frustrated, disappointed, and angry about what I did and did not accomplish. The blame would definitely fall within no realm but my own if I committed to the quest of living the life dictated by others. So I went to work. I did research on how I should go about getting my work published, talked with friends and others about their experiences publishing and what advice they had for me moving forward, and continued nurturing my craft. And in roughly six months time, my book Prevail: Poems on Life, Love, and Politics was available for public consumption.
It fills me up with so much pride and joy seeing my book in print. It’s a major accomplishment, and I’m glad I finally pursued it. Now that my book is out, work hasn’t stopped. I’m still writing, networking, and planning for signings, readings, and other appearances to promote my work and myself. I’ve also begun work on my next project (more on that in another post, I promise). The focus for me is becoming a full-time writer. Outside of my writings about music, entertainment, pop culture, I’m most interested in writing about the human condition and the many things that we experience in our day-to-day lives. My writing—be it poetry, song lyrics, short stories, or prose—can, at times, be raw, confrontational, and confessional. As people who’ve read my writing have said, it’s engaging and it’s real. I’ve long since realized my style is not for everybody. However, if my writing resonates and touches just a few people, then I’m on the right path.
While writing is one of my passions, the dreaming doesn’t stop there. I’m in the process of achieving two other dreams. The first is finishing my MBA (which will be completed December 2012) and the second is becoming a voice over actor/artist (which I’m training for as we speak). And I have others, that, in time, I will continue to nurture and work to achieve.
It’s great to have dreams. We should all be encouraged to dream. But nothing is sadder than when we don’t go after or put in the work to make our dreams come to life. It’s critical that we do not let anything or anyone (and that includes ourselves) stand in the way. And you can’t give up if success doesn’t happen immediately or happen in the way you think it should. Always be open and flexible to what the universe may bring you. It may be better than anything you ever dreamed or anticipated.
Whatever you do—keep dreaming and keep achieving. Live your destiny.
Gone Too Soon
Fighting with the world everyday,
Trying to stand firm on ground that changes like DC metro area weather,
Not knowing when it’s safe to be you, or when it’s best to retreat:
It’s safer on the inside—sometimes.
The golden era ended quicker than you could comprehend.
And you were thrust upon the audacity of disgust and hatred
From people you thought were your friends,
People you thought were your family,
People who said they loved you but you just can’t seem to trust.
You’ve walked a line that many people claim they can handle but couldn’t, even if humanity depended on it.
It’s a line that you don’t want to walk.
It’s a line that often runs faster than the speed of sound and light, with a soundtrack that repeats daily.
And you’re tired of hearing it.
Living in a world where people get high off of ridicule and bullying,
One is left numb,
Not wanting to deal.
The help you need never arrives when you need it.
It always comes too late.
You push and push,
And push and push.
And you keep pushing,
But the force always seems to kill your spirit.
It was at first a temporary thing,
But the period of death began to outlast the periods of rebirth.
There’s a lot that you can and have dealt with,
But it’s the pain and its lasting effects
That cut you down to nubs,
The hurt practically defying man’s comprehension of depth.
If you could only find relief,
A sweet release from it all…
The inner light quickly fades.
And you succumb to a place
Where your spirit will forever reign.
You’ll be safe from harm and healed
From a lifetime of pain.
If only it didn’t have to come to this.
You’d still be here.
You could’ve been saved.
© 2012 BuddahDesmond
I was also honored to be featured with Rashid Darden, Monica A. Hand, and Red Summer the Black LGBT head / heart / love poetry reading (I’ll post video of my reading soon). It was a phenomenal experience. The energy from the audience was great. They were really feeling our poetry (which is always a plus). And the turnout was excellent. After the show I received lots of kudos from members of the audience and my fellow poets from the reading. It was also touching to have some of my family and friends present at the event. If it wasn’t for a solid support system, I wouldn’t have made it this far. My support system has definitely helped me prevail.
Flash in the Pan
You came in—
A nice guy,
Cute and intelligent,
But it turned out to be doublespeak.
You had my attention instantly;
Thought I was fallin’ for you.
You turned me on in all the right places,
But then everything flipped.
The potential was lost,
Gave way to bullshit and childish games,
And I lost interest just as instantly.
But I guess the signs were there
It wouldn’t last.
You came in and just as quickly went out—
Like a flash!
© 2012 BuddahDesmond
As part of OutWrite, I’ll also be featured along with Rashid Darden, Monica A. Hand, and Red Summer in head / heart / soul, which will celebrate the works of Black LGBT poets. head / heart / soul will take place August 4th at 6:30pm. RSVP for the poetry reading by visiting the event’s Facebook page. I can’t wait!
Aside from the poetry reading, I’ll have a table set up in the exhibition area on both days. So stop on by!
If you live in or will be visiting the DC Metro Area in early August, please come out and support OutWrite. It’s gearing up to be an unforgettable event!